Continuation is key. For I am not merely beginning a new chapter of my life, rather continuing to write the book. I think that too often people look at change as a fresh start, the chance to begin anew. In my eyes however I am learning from past mistakes and creating new experiences.
Change is never easy as you fight to hold on and you fight to let go. And that is exactly how I have come to see the constant changes that occur in my life. Going to college, moving to a big city, joining a sorority, spending vacations back home, new and old relationships, and ultimately moving to another country for 5 months are all chapters of my life that I have taken on with great enthusiasm and fought to explore to their fullest.
Getting ready to leave the United States and venture to a new country has brought with it similar emotions as leaving my small town in Connecticut in exchange for an amazing college experience in Boston, Massachusetts. On the outside, what I hope is pure excitement.
When ever the topic is approached my cemented response is, “I can’t wait, I am soo excited!” I then hope to prove this as truth by explaining why I chose to study abroad in New Zealand or I recite the numerous anecdotes about the country that I memorized while researching the two island country off the coast of Australia. If anyone doubted my sincerity, I am unaware.
Inside however, there has been a chain of mixed emotions that seem to circle on a continuous loop. Am I doing the right thing? Am I going to miss my family? Will it be as amazing as I hope? I am going to love it! I am going to have an amazing time! Will people miss me or even forget about me? Goodness they have a lot of sheep there!
Luckily the excitement always beats the fear in this eternal struggle and I know that without that fear, this opportunity would not be nearly as thrilling.
Change is never easy as you fight to hold on and you fight to let go. And that is exactly how I have come to see the constant changes that occur in my life. Going to college, moving to a big city, joining a sorority, spending vacations back home, new and old relationships, and ultimately moving to another country for 5 months are all chapters of my life that I have taken on with great enthusiasm and fought to explore to their fullest.
Getting ready to leave the United States and venture to a new country has brought with it similar emotions as leaving my small town in Connecticut in exchange for an amazing college experience in Boston, Massachusetts. On the outside, what I hope is pure excitement.
When ever the topic is approached my cemented response is, “I can’t wait, I am soo excited!” I then hope to prove this as truth by explaining why I chose to study abroad in New Zealand or I recite the numerous anecdotes about the country that I memorized while researching the two island country off the coast of Australia. If anyone doubted my sincerity, I am unaware.
Inside however, there has been a chain of mixed emotions that seem to circle on a continuous loop. Am I doing the right thing? Am I going to miss my family? Will it be as amazing as I hope? I am going to love it! I am going to have an amazing time! Will people miss me or even forget about me? Goodness they have a lot of sheep there!
Luckily the excitement always beats the fear in this eternal struggle and I know that without that fear, this opportunity would not be nearly as thrilling.
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